May 9, 2014: Marc said we could commit - found out about house financials

This was a busy Friday!  Marc had a meeting at the bank in order to ask questions about financing for the house.  We were filling out papers upon papers and tracking down lots of copies of things for the bank.  We got a great interest rate, and were excited to move the process along.

I was busy meeting with a prospective tutoring family, and upon the result of that meeting, Marc and I felt confident that God was leading me to resign from my job at CCA in order to stay home and tutor.  

We met at Glenn Hilton Park, where our boys were celebrating a friend's birthday.  As we piled in cars (Marc and I had driven separately and met there) to go home, I asked Marc:  "So, since we got great news at the bank, what are you thinking about timing for commitment to the girls?"

And he said, "Well, I was going to wait until Mother's Day, but we can commit now if you want to."  

And then he got in the car and drove off.  

I was freaking out!

Seriously?

I mean, seriously?  We could commit?  Marc was ready?  Oh, my, goodness!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I called my friend, Jenny, right away, and we freaked out together, and I cried, and she told me just how incredibly difficult it would be.  And I believed her, and I knew that I could never know just how hard it would be until I walked it.  

And then we went to Will's baseball game, where Marc and I talked money that we had to have up front for the house purchase.  

It was three times what I had originally thought.  

We couldn't do both:  house and adoption.  

I was crushed!

But Marc calmed me and reminded me that if it's God's Will, he would pay the bill, and crazy enough, as we crunched numbers over the next few days, we discovered that if we pinched every single penny, we would have just enough!  This SERIOUSLY was not possible just a few days before.  I think God messed with math to make our adoption possible!  

We had some unexpected car expenses later on, and in typical human-sin-doubt form, I panicked, but God allowed us to get our deposit back on our rental house, which covered more than what we needed to.  

Oh, how He knows and how He cares for us!  

Thank you, Lord!

We ended up deciding to wait to commit until we made an offer on a house, it was accepted, and the house passed inspection.  From previous experience, we knew that anything could happen on inspection day, and we didn't want to have to start the house-finding process all over again AND be in the middle of adoption stuff.

(Our House...from the back!)

So, more waiting.

Which meant more mercy and love as we drew nearer and nearer to Christ during our wait!

Romans 8:25  But if we look forward to something we don’t yet have, we must wait patiently and confidently.